I always dreamt of not having to wake up to worries whether it was the bills that my parents had as a kid or the bills that I have today. I've always believed that it was going be my dream of becoming a "famous writer" that would set me free from this physical and mental bondage. I still believe this and when things seems to be at its darkest hour. I'm still a believer if not now more than ever. I can't wait my turn anymore. You can't look like everyone else and wonder why I'm not being noticed or seen.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Friday, December 7, 2012
Today is Your Day
I thought today was going to be a crazy day, because today is the day of your passing. But I'm actually doing just fine and I guess I never thought I'd get passed your passing. I mean you are the person that taught me everything I know ; especially how I treat women. Women ask me all the time where have you been all my life? Where did you learn to do that??? I learned from my father.... (smile) It is true that a boy child or girl child for the most part will take on traits and habits of their mother or father. I learned a lot in the 16 years that my father was in my life, but I believe and know that my father is proud of me. He said it everyday so there is no question about that, but because he said," I was better than him". I feel that I always have to take what I'm doing to that next level. I just want to thank my dad but my mom as well, because it takes two to raise a boy child. I believe that I have the greatest parents in the world. I'm finally accepting your passing dad and learning how to be the great man that you have seen in me so many years ago.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
To My First Born
I knew that one day you would come, and whether I was prepared or not didn't matter. I don't regret your arrival or who you were sent through, but I am hurt that I wasn't given the opportunity to see the face that resembled mine.
So many words that I wanted to tell you, but I won't be able to get that opportunity not in the way that I wanted too. I'll speak to you every night I won't act as though you never existed, because you have parents that love you. I'm just smiling thinking about all the small things like laughs we could of shared with you, and I wonder how your laugh would of been?? Would your laugh would of been like your mothers or like mine??? You have a big family though so you would of been loved many. I know above all other things I know that you would of been one to make a difference in the world. Me and your mother will always love you. One day we will see you and when that day comes that will be the second most happiest days in my life and the first was finding out about you.
Love, Your dad
So many words that I wanted to tell you, but I won't be able to get that opportunity not in the way that I wanted too. I'll speak to you every night I won't act as though you never existed, because you have parents that love you. I'm just smiling thinking about all the small things like laughs we could of shared with you, and I wonder how your laugh would of been?? Would your laugh would of been like your mothers or like mine??? You have a big family though so you would of been loved many. I know above all other things I know that you would of been one to make a difference in the world. Me and your mother will always love you. One day we will see you and when that day comes that will be the second most happiest days in my life and the first was finding out about you.
Love, Your dad
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