To My First Born

I knew that one day you would come, and whether I was prepared or not didn't matter. I don't regret your arrival or who you were sent through, but I am hurt that I wasn't given the opportunity to see the face that resembled mine.
So many words that I wanted to tell you, but I won't be able to get that opportunity not in the way that I wanted too. I'll speak to you every night I won't act as though you never existed, because you have parents that love you. I'm just smiling thinking about all the small things like laughs we could of shared with you, and I wonder how your laugh would of been?? Would your laugh would of been like your mothers or like mine??? You have a big family though so you would of been loved many. I know above all other things I know that you would of been one to make a difference in the world. Me and your mother will always love you. One day we will see you and when that day comes that will be the second most happiest days in my life and the first was finding out about you.


Love, Your dad