My Procrastination Evolved Into Ambition

Have you ever wondered about why you acted the way you use too? Like for example like why you were in that relationship or had those friends that weren't for your best interest. I am really cleaning house when it comes to things in my life. I am really getting rid of negative thinking, excuses, lack of faith in self and procrastination.

When I was younger I use to procrastinate a lot, and I guess that came from my mind being filled with all these thoughts raining over my brain. I would think about the future wondering what God had planned for me. I would sit next the window ceil and ask “God, when will this pain go away”? I went through more heartbreaks than I care to share, and I don’t how my heart had the strength to keep stopping by these heartbreaks.

I would search and find knowing that I had a purpose in life, but not knowing the name of my gift. I felt like I wasn’t doing anything with my life, until I could really invest my time into something that made my heart kissed the lips of the world. One day I walked into the beautiful face of a woman named Poetry, and she has never left my side. I had found the answer to the question that I searched high and low for, and years later I found that it wasn’t just poetry that caught my heart but writing plays as well. I was allowed the opportunity to be one of the individuals that helped start an organization for young actors, playwrighters and directors. This organization is now rebuilding a lot of things within it but I think it will come out in a better light after the smoke clears.

Over time my procrastination has evolved into ambition, and at times I have my fall backs but I’m human. I believe at the end of one day and the beginning of another day I am still very much in love with the fact people are calling me saying that there’s D.J. Davis or “MiddleSoul” or Da Poet the published author. I have been dreaming about being a published author since 2001, and to finally say that I am a published author. It really reboots joy back into my heart, and start to remember all those long nights of writing on a computer while people were sleep. I had the RAW PASSION of my poetry and I believe it or not back in 2005 I posted every poem that was going in the book. I think that will become a part of my process when it comes writing my book. I like to marry what I’m about to put in the front of the world. I like to wake up next to my work and see it every day and see how it looks every day. I am rediscovering myself as an author and poet while I’m posting this blog entry. This is truly a new beginning and the next page in my book of life.